The gun gets bigger
every time I close my eyes
the first time was the worst
with the life-sized gun
in the back of the life-sized van
now with my life-sized children in my stomach, ready to come
they’re your children, did you know?
You who dragged me into that van at gunpoint
weren’t we at one point friends?
And you had to have all of me
because that was what I would not give
are you happy now?
Because I’m too young to be a mom
because you just had to please yourself
and now every time I close my eyes
you are all I can see
and the gun gets bigger
and your smile gets wider
and the fact that I’m pregnant
shows more every day.