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My Incapabilities

fucked by a man of steel
and never again
letting my guard down

my heart now stands
in iron bars

and I will wait,
as we all do,
for someone to understand

aching and attempting
to wash away

but all of the water
in the world
and on mars

just isn’t enough
Just
Isn’t
Enough

I want to be touched now
held, don’t you see?

No! God no, not like that!
–and in the blink of an eye
i see them all walk away

my brokenness too much
–yours?
:Just enough.

Robbed, now
Of my ability to love
Be loved

because I was fucked enough for one lifetime

And that’s just who you are
And that’s all that you want
you’re sure I’ll find the right person someday
someday…

But why not today?
And definitely not you
because you want someone
a little less this
and a little more that
and a little less
me
And you
and you
and you…
But I’m sure you’ll find someone someday
to deal with your shit
and who’s just enough broken
for You.
Because we’d all rather write you off
than be patient
or take the time
not to frighten you
not to know you
To know you’re worth it

Because you’re not

not worth the time
not worth the patience
not worth the frustration

not worth it
not worth it
not worth it

I’m so happy

I’m so happy

I’m so happy

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Up-side-down

Sink my teeth into your flesh
Trying to break free
This curse you’ve caused me
Separating
Everything from me
I’m trying to forgive you
Bastard
For everything you’ve hurt
And still the echo of your name
Wounds my inner self
These children are not mine to own
Parasites you infected me
Where has the love gone?
Ah, yes
I remember
You stole it all from these
Now in my dreams I watch them
Being taken again
And again
Wondering if I’ll ever have
What these two deserve
I’m trying to forgive you
Bastard
For everything you stole
Yet still the echo of your name
Ruins every part of me

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12 years

I’ll tease you if you tease me
We’ll stand amidst the sycamore tree
While I tease you and you tease me
Coax me with your gentle words
I’ll tease you while you tease me
Glances only, never touch
I’ll tease you if you tease me
These things I’ve never shown before
Known before
I’ll tease you if you tease me
I’ll guide you into one cautious touch
I’ll tease you if you want me

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Alone again always

They’re three words
I fear I’ll never hear
Playing at life with danger
Living life carefree
Hiding my inner beauty
Because outter, I’ve never been
Waiting an eternity
As those three word
I’m busy
Weeping to myself
Wistfully

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On Mob Mentality

Allow me your forgiveness, I implore

I cheer among the crowds; await your death

Who reigns as God but Ceaser in this world?

A death that’s slow and painful you deserve

Crucify him! We spit and we cry out

Throwing insults at our falling Rabbi

Throbbing, crushing mob; jeering at his name

We ask him to save, then cry for his pain

I rhyme words, I sing songs, I cast my bets

Justice and victory for all to see

King of the Jews: So helpless is he now

Sky bathed in darkness

What have we finished?

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On Light

Pouring in through closed eyelids and sleep:

a gentle forked tongue laps and flickers out of sight

slowly spreading warmth across my resting brain;

colours explode; kaliedascopes infinite ignite

through toes and tingling knees past all forms of sight.

Sunshine dulled yet seen more clearly

when taught to listen with eyes closed

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On Anger

Welling up inside me,

an evil little monster,

burning all compassionate thoughts,

and filling my eyelids with red:

you hurt me and take pleasure

in seeing me in pain

the trust I lovingly gave to you

broken time and over again.

digging sharply into my arm,

I beg for a pain worse than you

You have bestowed this brown upon me

nothing for you to even gain.

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